I tiptoed into 2015 hugging a fragile piece of hope in my arms with care and wariness. I hope to find peace and closure in my heart. I hope to find the truth and direction in my life. It's after all the year I step into adulthood, and a year of certainty. I already knew I'm going on exchange; I'd apply for internship and also hold a birthday in advance to gather my loved ones before I go away. It's a jam-packed year and hell it really wasn't easy, but the people around me made it less difficult. There were certain things that weren't planned as well, such as getting closer to unlikely people.
These two guys helped me the most during the school semester. We studied together almost everyday in CLB, talked about cock & life whenever.
"Come, let's take a break."
"Time to eat."
"Cannot be those girls sit here whole day never eat. No use one. Brains also cannot absorb everything and it's unhealthy."
I really felt a lot of love and strength from them. Unsurprisingly, they turned out to be the ones who know my pattern the best. "You think like a guy. Worst type of guy." LOL. Yeah......yeah. The rest of my arts OG too, are real gems. I had so much fun just going to Techno Edge/Ameen/Macs/XO Beehoon/Menya Musashi to have dinner with them after a long day of mugging, also to this Chinese Karaoke Bar at Dhoby, and to Punggol Waterway at 2 in the morning.
With the extended OG at KSL, Johor early in the sem. Thanks to Mel, we found this gem. At a low price of $50 (or less I can't remember) per pax, we got a spacious apartment and private pool to ourselves.
There was a slight hiccup during the semester as I almost got into trouble due to plagiarism check. Fortunately, my prof was understanding and gave me a chance to quote my findings properly.
"From our tutorial discussions I know you have original ideas and your own voice, so make sure those come through in your assignments. That will be good for everyone, and especially for you."
Heng ge lao sai! I also did badly for the term paper of my favourite module under the best prof ever, and he was so encouraging about it..
"Judging from your class performance (which is well noted), I know you deserve a higher grade. Let me know if you need any help.
Thanks for your kind words on my class. I'm glad I haven't killed your interest in SEA, and it's been good having you in class too!"
They were both so nice about it, and my overall performance for that sem was not affected at all! And so I owed those two bros beer..ahaha.
Next, came the Internship. Yep, it is THE internship. Not sure if you have watched that movie before, it's really awesome! Anyway, I have talked about it twice in my previous posts? What I would add here is that up till today, it still has a positive influence on me :-) I'm currently applying for new internships now and it feels good when the interviewers asked me about my past industry experiences. It's after all, my first out-of-school work experience! :-) (using the name Charine openly for the first time too) I would post a picture with my boss and colleagues but unfortunately, I have transferred it to my hard drive which...I accidentally wiped out the entire memory lol. When I find cheap data recovery software then ^^
I also briefly touched on my birthday party. Haha wow such an eventful emotional night it had been! Even the police also came to celebrate with me! I also made an impromptu speech that ended up causing me to sob in front of 60 ppl lol. Not cool. That night feels very surreal. I'm not a rich man's kid, so never would I have imagined myself to hold a party at the executive suite of swissotel. I don't think I'm splurging unnecessarily though, because I really want my guests to have a comfortable private space to enjoy themselves.
So touching on my humble unprivileged working-class background, I was truly thrilled to be given the opportunity to study abroad in Paris for exchange. It wasn't as easy, the bit on finances. My father thought exchange is unnecessary as well. But truly what I've encountered and learnt over the past 5 months gonna prove him wrong. I've grown so much as a person, into someone I'm finally proud of being and I want to keep being. I have a clear vision in my head and got my whole year almost all planned out.
So this year, 2016, my one and only resolution is to always finish what I've started. Started to dream, started to plan, started to act..I will finish it with tangible results. Through 2015, I realise that there's no point in making a list of resolutions because really, you will never check them off. Have one, however vague it sounds, and let it be a principle to guide you. That, in my opinion, is far more powerful.
In 2015, I also learn one important thing. That is, I will never shun away from my past. I will not hide who I was and what I had been through. If I don't embrace my past, I can never like myself at the present either, let alone my future self. LOL sounds like I just had an extreme makeover. No worries, still short hair wear pants okay. Whatever happened in the past, I will draw inspirations from them and create. Idk, create anything. I hope to venture deeper into my artistic stream :D
Exciting plans unveiling, 敬请期待！
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