I didn't want to give a hasty reply so I thought long and hard about it for a few days.
Well, I am an optimistic person by nature, so I can't choose a depressing love song even if the melody is so freaking touching and the lyrics are so heartbreakingly beautiful. I need an encouraging song that can pick me up from my ruins, yet is melancholic in every sense.
Then I narrow all the songs I love to just this one:
It has to be this one. One and only one <3
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
The idea of fixing someone is so contestable. On one hand, it is like "I don't need anyone to fix me" "I am the only one who can get my shit together." On the other hand, it is so beautiful in the sense someone is willing to run his or her fingers through the knots of your soul and breathe you back into life.
But when I listen to this song, I see two possibilities. The first possibility is me singing this song to myself. "And I'll try to fix you.." Like my alter assuring my ego everything is gonna be okay. This fixing thing is internal, it's self-recovery. It is a very personal song for myself to myself by myself. The second possibility is of course the one mentioned in the previous paragraph, of someone else external to yourself, fixing you. There's just something about a broken soul that is so alluring..that naturally draws human spirits and attention to it. I don't think someone means to sound dominating when he or she says he will try to fix you. Like c'mon, the word 'try' itself has so much sincerity and genuineness. I see myself as the person who sings this song to my loved one, and picture myself being sung this song by my love too. It's mutual. I feel myself being stripped down to the rawest of my vulnerabilities. I feel myself wrapping my arms around someone and myself being wrapped at the same time. But in the end, everything's okay. This one 5 minutes song encapsulates the 3 main themes of my life: "Lights", "Home", and "Love". It's all that I need.
I have to admit, Kodaline's High Hopes or Love Will Set You Free don't even come close. They lack the same kind of essence that moves me utterly.
Nope, I don't think my obsession with lights will ever go away :)
What's that one song for you?
