One

Let me be one of the many specks of stardust that God sprinkles onto your world 

To glisten the darkest corners of your heart 

Let me be the dim-lit lamp by your side at the end of a long day 

When you droop your head over the edge of the bed 

And your weary soul needs a little warmth 

Let me be your sky full of stars that are shining on you 
Though they have died a billion years ago

You can still feel my love reaching out to you even when I'm gone 

I don't want to be your kryptonite or your fireworks 

I don't want to be the one 

I just want you to let me be 

Let me be one of those quiet ordinary littlest things that make up your life 

Simple, momentary, but always a part of God's plan in loving you 

Just promise me, you'll always be a friend 
'Cause you are the only one

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Well if you hurt me, that's okay baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
I will never let you go  

Because "waiting is the hardest work of hope"

A month ago, I thanked God for opening a few doors of opportunities for me.

Today, I thank God for closing them on me.

I thank God because now I know those options do not work out for me. I tried, I failed, I learnt and I move on. As I was telling a friend a few days ago, people like me and her have broad interests. What we end up doing in the future is de facto choice by elimination. We hop from places to places until we can find one that anchors us down. It sounds a lot like our Myers Briggs personality type haha. More often than not, it is not that others reject us; it is the other way round.

                       (Taken on 01/06/15, at East Coast Park Area F)

Love is Free

"You must love in such a way that the person you love feels free."

                                                                                                          -Thich Nhat Hanh

During the semester, while on the way to eat XO beehoon, hyung and I talked about relationships. I was sharing with her about a friend of mine who broke up with her boyfriend recently because of a clash of personalities. She's free-spirited, independent and one who appreciates personal space, while the guy is controlling, possessive and insecure. I was just asking hyung, how is it possible that they didn't find out about this incompatibility when they were getting to know each other during the dating stage? In dramas, we see couples breaking up because of the same reason: 性格不合 (clash of personalities). Everytime this reason is brought up, I would have doubts on it. A breakup can happen due to cheating, gradual loss of feelings, but clash of personalities...??? Oh come on..how could two persons with a clash of personalities click, have so much fun, and trust each other enough to want to commit to each other in the first place? A clash of personalities does not seem to suffice as a legitimate reason. 

I thought, only couples who rush into relationships will face this problem.

And I was so wrong.