A month ago, I thanked God for opening a few doors of opportunities for me.
Today, I thank God for closing them on me.
I thank God because now I know those options do not work out for me. I tried, I failed, I learnt and I move on. As I was telling a friend a few days ago, people like me and her have broad interests. What we end up doing in the future is de facto choice by elimination. We hop from places to places until we can find one that anchors us down. It sounds a lot like our Myers Briggs personality type haha. More often than not, it is not that others reject us; it is the other way round.
(Taken on 01/06/15, at East Coast Park Area F)
Maybe sometimes we are a little too harsh on ourselves. We don't allow ourselves room to fail. I was like that but I grew to change my perspective.
We teeter, we stumble, we fall. It's okay. We accumulate experiences in the process which will prove to be much more valuable in the long run than achieving a one-time success. Some people have a clear goal and take a straightforward path to achieve it. Some take a longer time to figure themselves out and run into many difficulties before getting a clearer idea of who they want to be. But no matter what, we all get to the place we are meant to be someday. The length of time and the amount of effort we have to put in mean nothing more than just figures.
Today, I thank God for closing them on me.
I thank God because now I know those options do not work out for me. I tried, I failed, I learnt and I move on. As I was telling a friend a few days ago, people like me and her have broad interests. What we end up doing in the future is de facto choice by elimination. We hop from places to places until we can find one that anchors us down. It sounds a lot like our Myers Briggs personality type haha. More often than not, it is not that others reject us; it is the other way round.
(Taken on 01/06/15, at East Coast Park Area F)
Maybe sometimes we are a little too harsh on ourselves. We don't allow ourselves room to fail. I was like that but I grew to change my perspective.
We teeter, we stumble, we fall. It's okay. We accumulate experiences in the process which will prove to be much more valuable in the long run than achieving a one-time success. Some people have a clear goal and take a straightforward path to achieve it. Some take a longer time to figure themselves out and run into many difficulties before getting a clearer idea of who they want to be. But no matter what, we all get to the place we are meant to be someday. The length of time and the amount of effort we have to put in mean nothing more than just figures.
The guys in my OG are really good examples. They are 2-3 years older than the typical guys in my batch because they went to poly/retained in JC then went to poly. Hahaha we always laugh at them for being chaolao, and the age difference between them and the incoming freshie girls is like..whew! "How to find girls in uni like that..all little girls" Karthik always complains LOL. My point is, they took a longer time than their other peers to get here but so what? They are all doing so well in their lives now (in fact, very up there!) and have their futures mapped out. Because of their life experiences in different systems and institutions, they have very interesting perspectives and lessons to share as well. Quoting WL: "A goal without a plan is just a wish." He wrote that on a post-it and stuck it on my Mac Book during the finals period. I am deeply encouraged :-)
As we grow up, we'd learn to see through (看透 HAHA) a lot of things too. Things that used to hurt us badly just don't really get to us anymore~ For example, you stop feeling sore that certain friends only come talk to you when they need your help. You've come to accept it because you know their pattern is such & they will make it up to you somehow in the near future. Haha. I also learnt that there is no point in having regrets. If you realise that you still want that particular something and it's within reach, go for it. I used to find it a pity to quit French as my third language back in Secondary 1. If I were mature enough to think ahead, I'd be able to speak fluent French now which will definitely be useful for my exchange. You know..like picking French babes up ;) hahaha. But the workings of universe are magical. Right now, there is a French-Malaysian interning at the same company as I am! A legit one! He can speak French, Bahasa Melayu and English! So we made a deal hoho. I'm teaching him Chinese and in return, he will make me a master of French (mainly vulgarities and pick-up lines I foresee LOL).
Ah, I made a lot of mistakes along the way. Sometimes I still bash myself up for that. But looking back, they were all necessary to bring me to where I am today. As cliche and self-comforting as I sound, I do believe that all things happen for a reason, to serve a greater purpose of my life. Of course, there is never an end goal in life. Life is a journey in itself, and there will still be bad days in the future. But as long as we keep ourselves centered and stable, we are most definitely able to navigate through the turmoils.
If you are still finding your way like me, do not worry. "I can think, I can fast, I can wait." Wait, just wait. Waiting does not mean sitting around and doing nothing. It means to put in effort and be patient for the outcome. Eventually, everything will be just fine. And we'll all get there :)
"If it is right, it happens - the main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away."
- John Steinback
Keep chasing the light.
If you are still finding your way like me, do not worry. "I can think, I can fast, I can wait." Wait, just wait. Waiting does not mean sitting around and doing nothing. It means to put in effort and be patient for the outcome. Eventually, everything will be just fine. And we'll all get there :)
"If it is right, it happens - the main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away."
- John Steinback
Keep chasing the light.
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