Miracles

Stay (you don't hear me say)

I had wanted this blog to be private but I decided to put the link up on my social media profile. People who bother clicking on it to read about my life are probably interested in what I have to show and tell anyway. So if my words and pictures can inspire you someway, I'm glad to do so. 

This post is not gonna be smooth..I have so much to say but head and heart are unusually heavy now. I didn't think I was capable of feeling this affected by the 2nd missing plane of the year. I guess it's the anticipation of ending the year on a good note for everyone (like literally everyone in the whole universe) that hit me. 

I remember when I was younger, my one goal in life was to make everyone around me happy. I have been a people-pleaser ever since. But as I grew older, I became more selfish and was always obsessing over somebody - one person at a time of course. There is a void in my heart right now and I guess it's a healthy kind of void, because I am no longer caught up with doing things for only that special someone and have more time to work on myself. I was such a possessive, selfish and obsessive asshole..I hate to be so myopic again. Now I'm slowly learning to distribute my care for my loved ones more evenly. And I am starting to look at the bigger pictures in life, caring more about the big big world I'm living in. 

I pray for miracles to happen. May QZ8501 be found.