Trinity of emotions

I haven't written anything personal in a long while.  I might have lost the ability to do so, given how my work commitments have compelled me to use a certain language that does not really chime "individuality".

Lately I feel myself gasping for air, quite very literally - like a sigh that gets swallowed back into my lungs. It isn't the typical weight in my heart or mind, but rather a lingering sensation that emanates from my chest.  I struggled to describe what it entails till speaking to Tanya this morning helped me put a finger to it.  

It is a trinity of being emotionally drained, emotionally unavailable and feeling emotional about all of it at the same time.  Strange, hur? Being emotional about not being (able to be) emotional.  Hur. 

I guess this restful weekend is a good time for me to decompress and reassess my priorities in life.  I will be back to share more thoughts (and perhaps regain my individuality, in due course).  

p.s. I use parentheses a lot more in my writing after I met her - just one thing that stays even when the person has long gone.